Realization

Hay. . . I woke up around 4 in the morning. . . Not withstanding the fact that I just slept two hours ago. . . that’s if you can really consider that as a sleep!

With the cold wind that endlessly whistles outside the window. . . I had this realization. . .

I finally realize that I'd rather lose the relationship I have than to lose my respect, honesty and love to my partner. . . Its better to lose the connection between us rather than to continue the relationship that slowly diminishes your outmost respect and care for each other. Loving unconditionally is loving without having or expecting anything in return. . .

Martyrdom? Nah. . . a little bit far from that context, what’s more important is that, what you feel for the person, and what you do to the person with or without any commitment. . . Maybe that’s how you can really measure the “greatness” of love. . . it isn’t justified by having this so called “public acceptance” or “knowledge” that you both are madly in love with each other,,, its putting into actions your care, being concerned, going beyond what the reality offers. . . Extending or stretching the unthinkable actions,,, as they say, “going beyond what is normal.” Not thinking about the sacrifices, but having that feeling of fulfillment or satisfaction for the choices we made. . .

But there’s a thin thread. . . be cautious of what I said a while ago regarding martyrdom.....sacrificing does not only means giving up something just to have the feeling of satisfaction, it also connotes “SELF DEVELOPMENT” and “self appreciation. . .” That there’s still respect, love, and honesty to oneself. . .

As what they commonly say, how can you give something if you don’t even have that something. . .

Hahaha. . . As to the conclusion of my Blog tonight??!

Nahh. . . its a nonsense. . . its up to you to deal with it. . .