Sunday, December 19, 2004

A Simple Gift

A/N: Honest to goodness, I almost wept when I read this one! It touches me... it touches a part of my self and soul... Untill now, I'm trying to convince myself not to cry but the tears just wont stop... well... I think you should read this for your self...

A boy's faith..

Somewhere in Milaor, Camarines Sur, there lived a fourth grader boy who would follow this route to school everyday: He has to cross the rugged plains and cross the dangeroushighway where vehicles are recklessly driving to and from.Once passed this highway, the boy would take a short cut by passing by the Church every morning just to say Hi to God, and faithfully say his, "Magandang umaga po" in Bicol dialect. He was faithfully being watched by a Priest who was happy to find innocence souplifting in the morning,"Kamusta Andoy! Papasok ka na?"
"Opo padre ..."he would flash his innocent grin, the priest would be touched. He was so concerned that one day he talked to Andoy."From school...", he advised "Do not cross the highway, you can pass through the Church and I can accompany you to the other side of the road ... that way I can see that you arehome safe...."
"Thank you father ..."
"Why don't you go home ... do you stay in this church right after school?"
"I just want to say "Hi" to my friend, God," and the priest would leave the boy to spend time beside the altar, talking by himself, but he was hiding behind the altar to listen to what this boy has to say to his heavenly FATHER. "You know my math exam was pretty bad today, but I did not cheat although my seatmate is bullying me for notes... I ate onecracker and drank my water, Itay had a bad season and all I can eat is this cracker. Thank you for this! I saw a poor kitten that was hungry and I know how he feels so gave my last cracker to him ... funny but I am not that hungry... Look, this is my last pair of slippers... I may have to walk barefooted next week you see this is about to be broken... but it is okay... at least I am still going to school... some say we will have a hard season this month, some of my classmates have already stopped going to school ... please help them get to school again, please God? ... Oh, you know, Inay had hit me again, it is painful, but I know this pain will pass away, at least I still have a mother.... God, you want to see my bruises? I know you can heal them ... here... here and ... oh...blood... I guess you knewabout this one huh? Please don't be mad at Inay, she is just tired and she worries for the food in our table and my schooling that is why she hits us ... Oh, I think I am in love ... there's this pretty girl in my class, her name is Anita ... do you think she will like me? Anyway, at least I know you will always like me, I don't have to be anybody just to please you, you are my very best friend! Hey your birthday is two days from now!!! Aren't you excited? I am! wait till you see, I have a gift for you ... but it is a surprise! I hope you will like it! Oooops, I have to go ..." then he stood up and calls out, "Padre, padre, I am finished talking to my friend ... you can accompany me to the other side of the road now"
This routine happens everyday. Andoy never fails. Father Agaton shares this every Sunday to the people in his church because he has not seen a very pure faith and trust in God, a very positive look at negative situations.
One Christmas day, Father Agaton was sick so he could not make it in the Church, he was sent to the hospital. The Church was left to 4 manangs who would chant the rosary in 1000 miles per hour, would not smile and would always find fault in what you do, they are also very well versed in cursing if you irritate them!They were kneeling, saying their kilometric rosary when Andoy, coming from his Christmas party, playfully dashed in. "Hello God!”

"P----!! (a curse) bata ka!! Alam mo nang may nagdadasal!! Alis!!"
Poor Andoy was so terrified, "Where's Father Agaton? He is supposed to help me cross the street ... and to be able to cross the street I will have to pass by the back door of thischurch ...not only that, I have to greet Jesus. It is His birthday, I have a gift right here...." Just as he was about to get the gift out of his shirt, the manang pulled his shirt and threw him out of the church. "Susmaryosep!!! (does a sign of the cross fervently) Alis kang bata ka, kung hindi matatamaan ka!!! So the boy had no choice but to cross the dangerous side of the road in front of the church. He crossed. A fast moving bus came in. There was a blind curve. The boy wasprotecting his gift inside his shirt, so he was not looking. There was so little time.
Andoy died on the spot. A lot of people crowded the poor boy, the body of a lifeless young boy ... Suddenly, out of nowhere a tall man in pure white shirt and pants, a face so mild and gentle, but with eyes full of tears... He came and carried the boy in His arms. Hewas crying.Curious bystanders nudged the man in white, and asked, "Excuse me sir, are you related to this child? Do you know this child?" The man in white, His face mourning and in agony, lifted up and answered, "He was my bestfriend ..." was all he said.
He took the badly wrapped gift in the bloody chest of the lifeless boy, and placed it near His heart. He stood up and carried the boy away and they both disappeared in sight. Thecrowd was curious ...On Christmas Eve, Father Agaton learned of the shocking news. He visited the house, and wanted to verify about the man in white. He consulted the parents of Andoy. "Howdid you know that your son died?"

"A man in white brought him here." sobbed the mother. "What did he say?” The father answered, "He did not say anything. He was mourning. We do not know him and yet he was very lonely at our son's death, as if he knew our son very well. But there was something peaceful and unexplainable about him. He gave me my son, and then he smiled peacefully. He rubbed my son's hair away from his face and kissed him on his forehead, then he whispered something ...".
"What did he say?"
"He said to my boy..." the father began, "Thank you for the gift ... I will see you soon ... you will be with me..." and the father of the boy continued, "and you know for a while, it felt so wonderful ... I cried, but I do not know why.... all I know is I cried in tears of joy ... I could not explain it, Father, but when that man left, something peaceful came over me, I felt a deep sens e of love inside ... I could not explain the joy in my heart, I knew my boy is in heaven now but...tell me, Father, who is This man that my son talks to everyday in your church, you should know because you are always there ... except On the time of his death ..."
Father Agaton suddenly felt the tears welling in his eyes, with trembling knees, he murmured, " ... He was talking to no one ... but ...GOD..."

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

A Loner Maybe

Are you a LONER? You know, those 'NERD' people who enjoyed being alone in everything they do. Either when hanging out in some natural HANGOUTS or even those who enjoy reading books or eating their snacks alone? Those were the one I was referring to. But, are you familiar with the saying; "No man is an Island."? Indeed, no man is an island, 'cause a man... is a human and not an island! (HE HE HE) But why does a loner exist? Well, maybe they are not a loner at all. Maybe they have friends too. Maybe at times they just like to be alone when their 'NERD ATTITUDE' burst in. Well, all is just a simple "MAYBE". But why do they prefer to be alone?

There are about a BILLION people in this planet that they can be friends with. Again, let me use the word "MAYBE". Maybe because they are looking for a true friend. TRUE to the point that they would understand him in his own silly ways.

Maybe you're wondering why I wrote such thoughts, aren't you? Can't you get it? Its simply because I’m one of those NERDS. You don't think that I would tell you that in the first place don't you? Because if I did, you won't bother reading this one. He He He! Now back to business. I wrote this essay (if it is one) just to express my feelings. Simply because, I cant get rid off my mind the questions specifically; “Does my friends really are my friends?” I was able to read a quote that goes like this : “An insincere and evil friend are much to be feared than a wild beast. A wild beast can give you physical pain, but an insincere and evil friend can give you Mental and Emotional pain.” Up to now, I feared to seek answers to my question because I may just get upset or something. That’s why I prefer to be a loner. I prefer to be with my self than to be with others who ‘may’ not want to be with me…

I WANT TO SAY I LOVE YOU

When I first saw you
I knew I would love you
When the time I met you
I can say that I do

So I pray to GOD
That it will come true
That you will say
I love you too!

But when I hear
That you love someone else
My whole world
And my life is now hopeless.

And I knew I have no chance
To be with you
But now, I only want you to know
That you are my everything

And...
I want to say...
How much I love you....

MY SECRET

I try not to show you
I hid it within my heart
I try to avoid you
But you know it from the start

Do you see it on my eyes
Do you read it on my face
Or heard it from a spy
who left without a trace

I knew my heart reveals
But its far from within
It seeks yet to appear
Please be gentle or be still

by Karen Faye Delos Santos
091800

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Transcript kang chat mi ni IRIS

ANONYMOUS: :(

I R I S has signed back in. (12/7/2004 5:12 PM)

ANONYMOUS: =;
I R I S : hi
ANONYMOUS: :)
I R I S : msta k na?
ANONYMOUS: mabuti po
I R I S : wer u ngaun?
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ANONYMOUS: the usual
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I R I S : ala u psok?
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ANONYMOUS: walang prof eh!
I R I S : ganun?
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ANONYMOUS: ikaw?
ANONYMOUS: kumusta na?
I R I S : ok lng
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ANONYMOUS: busy ka siguro!
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ANONYMOUS: then tinanong ko kung kilala ka niya
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I R I S : mtangkad?
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I R I S : medyo kulot ang hair?
ANONYMOUS: i think so
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I R I S : bka couz ko
I R I S : pno mo nkila2?
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ANONYMOUS: then nakita niya dun yung picture ni gino
ANONYMOUS: sabi niya
ANONYMOUS: pinsan daw niya si GINO
I R I S : ok
I R I S : bka c dan2
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ANONYMOUS: hehehehe
ANONYMOUS:
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ANONYMOUS: there, bago na naman avatar ko!
ANONYMOUS: ehehehehe
I R I S : kk
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I R I S : ngsnack k na?
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ANONYMOUS: gutom ngani me!
I R I S : yan!
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I R I S : ngpa2rachat k kya!
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ANONYMOUS: hinahalat taka kaya!
I R I S : ang sabi!
ANONYMOUS: pwamis
I R I S : pno kng d me ngchat?
ANONYMOUS: edi sa uulitin na paghihintay! ano pa ba!
ANONYMOUS: hello?
I R I S : ano?
ANONYMOUS: wala lang po!
ANONYMOUS: just checkin
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I R I S : yaon lng me dgdi?
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ANONYMOUS: lolz
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I R I S : ka2n k na
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ANONYMOUS: lolz
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I R I S : ulcer
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I R I S : bsog pa mn me
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I R I S : iyo po
ANONYMOUS: hehehehe
I R I S : ano n?
ANONYMOUS: ooops
ANONYMOUS: sowee
ANONYMOUS: namemental block kasi ako pag ikaw ka chat ko
ANONYMOUS: i just dnt know y!
ANONYMOUS:
I R I S :
ows...
ANONYMOUS:
I R I S :
ano/./
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I R I S : o
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ANONYMOUS: hehehehehe
I R I S : kk
ANONYMOUS: pangdagdag kay ate xanne
I R I S : ok
ANONYMOUS: any topic?
I R I S : ala me maicp
ANONYMOUS: wla kc me maisip
ANONYMOUS: nyeeek
ANONYMOUS: lolz

BUZZ!!!

ANONYMOUS: ooops
ANONYMOUS: sowwe po
I R I S : ok lng
I R I S : cge bc ata u
ANONYMOUS: nope hindi naman po
ANONYMOUS: nagiisip ako ng sasabihin!
ANONYMOUS: wala kasi akong maisip
ANONYMOUS: im not good at this!
ANONYMOUS: dai ka naggigibo avatar?
I R I S : dai
I R I S : ala nga me mgwa
ANONYMOUS: wat do you mean?
I R I S : mau
I R I S : bka mghali nko
ANONYMOUS: ay!
ANONYMOUS: ganun!
I R I S : nbo2red n kc me
ANONYMOUS:
ANONYMOUS: ganun!
ANONYMOUS: tano mayo kang ibang ka chat?
ANONYMOUS: nadalan mo na ang bcuz of u?I R I S : maung siram mga kchat ko
I R I S : dai pa
ANONYMOUS: saro na kao duman diba?
I R I S : dai mn
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ANONYMOUS:
I R I S :
iyo
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I R I S : dai
ANONYMOUS: tano?
ANONYMOUS: kala ko gusto mo kaidto magdalan?
I R I S : inda..dai mn kya mdlan frnds ko
ANONYMOUS: teka
ANONYMOUS: yung ibang frnds ko madaralan daa
ANONYMOUS: gusto mo magiba?
I R I S : dai na
ANONYMOUS: ?
I R I S : dai n ngani po
ANONYMOUS: oh okay!
ANONYMOUS: lolz
ANONYMOUS: relax lang po
ANONYMOUS: wala ka pong kaaway!
ANONYMOUS: hehehehe
ANONYMOUS:
I R I S :
sory
ANONYMOUS: no prob po!
ANONYMOUS:
I R I S :
ok
ANONYMOUS: lol
ANONYMOUS: so ano na?
I R I S : ano mn
ANONYMOUS: talagang boring me kaulay noh?
ANONYMOUS: maski kaidtong nag eb kita!
I R I S : dai dw
I R I S : mdal2 k ngani
ANONYMOUS: hehehehehehe
ANONYMOUS: lalao na pag haloy na kitang magkabisto!
ANONYMOUS: talaganag madaldal ako
I R I S : ok
ANONYMOUS: as in super duper to the Nth power ang daldal ko!
I R I S : tultulun ka ano?
ANONYMOUS: ooopppssss
ANONYMOUS: depende sa kaulay
I R I S : ok
ANONYMOUS: nuarin palan ang bday mo?
I R I S : mar.16
ANONYMOUS: wow
I R I S : tno?
ANONYMOUS: 16 ka? insan ko 17 then si papa 18
ANONYMOUS: hehehehehe
ANONYMOUS: 19 ano?
I R I S : ok
I R I S : ewan
ANONYMOUS: hehehehe ayaw malaman ang edad?
I R I S : kab-day mo ngani couz ko
ANONYMOUS: feb 6?
I R I S : 1988
I R I S : oo
ANONYMOUS: 1988 ka?
I R I S : oo
ANONYMOUS: so ma 17 ka pa lang?
ANONYMOUS: ic
ANONYMOUS: ako kaya 87
I R I S : oo
I R I S : gurang nko...yaks!
ANONYMOUS: nyeeeek
ANONYMOUS: ako daw kaya mas gurang!
ANONYMOUS: lolz!
I R I S : kk
ANONYMOUS: pero dai man risa sakuya ano/
ANONYMOUS: garo man lang ako 1989 pinangaki!!!
ANONYMOUS: hubin pa ika nga!
I R I S : ang sabi!
ANONYMOUS: totoo daw kaya
ANONYMOUS: and sabi pa ni mama
I R I S :
ANONYMOUS:
ako daa ang pinakcuapo sa gabos!
I R I S : c mama mo mn lng gro ngsabi...
I R I S : joke!
ANONYMOUS: k lang kahit si mama lang
ANONYMOUS: at least may nagsabi sakuya!
ANONYMOUS: hehehehe
I R I S : suba lng!
ANONYMOUS: aram ko man po!
ANONYMOUS: pero honestly
ANONYMOUS: di ba hindi halata sa mukha ko na 17 na ako?
ANONYMOUS: joke!
I R I S : iyo po
ANONYMOUS: yan ha ika na nagsabi kayan!
ANONYMOUS: wala nang bawian!
I R I S : iyo na...
I R I S :
ANONYMOUS:
ANONYMOUS:
sabi ko na nga ba!
ANONYMOUS: hehehehehe
I R I S : cge npo
ANONYMOUS: so kumusta na yung nanliligaw sa iyo?
I R I S : uwi nko
ANONYMOUS: ay ganun ba?
ANONYMOUS: okie dokie
I R I S : mau...dai n ngpa2mti
I R I S : dai ko aram
ANONYMOUS: taga sain?
I R I S : bhla mn sya
I R I S : ngu2stuhan k nmn kuta,kya lng bka mgmukha nkong tanga
I R I S : blumentrit
ANONYMOUS: ganun?
ANONYMOUS: ako pede manligaw?
I R I S : oo
I R I S : ano nang suba mo yan!
ANONYMOUS: wat do you mean oo?
I R I S : bko e2 ang cmbag ko
ANONYMOUS: ahhhhhhh
ANONYMOUS: okie dokie@!
ANONYMOUS: saka taka na lugod liligawan
ANONYMOUS: pag 18 ka na lang!
I R I S : as if!
ANONYMOUS: ang bata pa kasi para magka bf ka eh!
ANONYMOUS: pwamissss!
I R I S : dai mo ko i-under estimate
ANONYMOUS: tano man po?
ANONYMOUS: galit ka?
I R I S : dai
ANONYMOUS: sowee na
ANONYMOUS: sowee na
ANONYMOUS: po
I R I S : ok lgn
I R I S : lng
ANONYMOUS: peace tayo!
ANONYMOUS: pero serious ako dun sa sinabi ko po kanina
I R I S : arin?e2ng aki pko pra mgka-bf?
ANONYMOUS: nope
ANONYMOUS:
ANONYMOUS:
saka taka na lugod liligawan
ANONYMOUS: pag 18 ka na lang!
I R I S : cge...kng available pko kang tym n yan
ANONYMOUS: alam mo yung song nina mark and sarah!?
ANONYMOUS: parang ganun!
I R I S : alin?
I R I S : anong song?
ANONYMOUS: yung song nina mark bautista and sarah na akoy maghihintay?
I R I S : ok
ANONYMOUS: get mmo?
ANONYMOUS: basta, if ever na dumating na yung panahon na iyon...
I R I S : oo
I R I S : ok
I R I S : kng mkita mo pko
ANONYMOUS:
ANONYMOUS:
ANONYMOUS:
I R I S :
dai mn
I R I S : cge na
ANONYMOUS: uv raised ur point there!
I R I S : alis nko
I R I S : bye
I R I S : yngat kpo
ANONYMOUS: uv raised ur point there!
ANONYMOUS:
I R I S :
ano?
ANONYMOUS: nothing
ANONYMOUS: sige na po
ANONYMOUS: napapaulit ka na po garo!
I R I S : ano ngani"?
ANONYMOUS: babay!
I R I S : mkulit ako
ANONYMOUS: wala po
ANONYMOUS: just forget it
I R I S : mkulit ako!
ANONYMOUS: twas about dun sa huli mong sinabi
I R I S : bhla ka
ANONYMOUS: kung makikita pa kita!
I R I S : ano mn?suba lng e2
ANONYMOUS: well nagyon baka joke lang
ANONYMOUS: but who knows diba?
I R I S : tno?
I R I S : ewan...bsta habo ko mgtaram ning tpos...ta habo kong mgpaasa nd habo kong umasa
ANONYMOUS: we cant tell wat mayt happen tomoro, next week, next month, or next year!!!
ANONYMOUS: okie
I R I S : tma ka!
ANONYMOUS: sige na po
ANONYMOUS: babay na muna po
I R I S : sorry...
ANONYMOUS: k lang po!
ANONYMOUS: no harm done
I R I S :
I R I S :
dai npo mauulit
ANONYMOUS: bakit ka po malungkot?
ANONYMOUS: ang alin?
I R I S : mau
I R I S : mau
ANONYMOUS: oh okay!
ANONYMOUS: babay!
I R I S : kk
ANONYMOUS: :)
I R I S : yngat k
ANONYMOUS: kaw po ang magingat!
I R I S : oo
ANONYMOUS: kasi malayo pa uuwian mo!
I R I S : harani lng!
ANONYMOUS: okie
ANONYMOUS: basta ha
ANONYMOUS: frnds na tayo!
I R I S : :)
I R I S : syempre!
I R I S : see u nlng s campus...kng mhiling tka
ANONYMOUS: oo nga
ANONYMOUS: see u in the campus
I R I S : k
I R I S : bye2
ANONYMOUS: bby

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Monday, December 06, 2004

BROKEN HEARTED

I met a girl, sweet and kind
She's my classmate and she's always on my mind
I'm always texting her
For she filled my life with joy and laughter
Her gestures, her looks
Her smiles, her voice
With it, my heart beguiles.
I tried my best to know this feeling
And found out, your name is lying
Deep within my heart is crying
For you, who make my life this blooming
But when I hear that you love someone else
My whole world
And my love is now dying
Midnight tears in pathless roads
For you are the reason why I'm crying
I wonder, lonely as a cloud
When moonlight were filled with alonely sounds
Now I pray to GOD that time may come
That my love for you, be gone
But how can I get you off my mind?
When in my heart, its there you hide?

Sunday, December 05, 2004

SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME

My morning starts to shine
with teardrops in my eyes
and here I am alone

starting to realize

That my day will be brighter,
if I could learn to hide
the feelings that I have for you

keep hurtin me inside

Then my days begin
with simple thoughts of you
hoping my tomorrows

will be me and you

Sharing dreams with each other
and making them come true
holding one another,

saying all I need is you

But if you say that you love me
and show me that you care
say when I need you,

you will always be there
but if you go and leave me
this I swear is true,

my love will always be with you

Then my nigths won't end
with just one wish thats you
hold me in the darkness

and help me make it thru

'cause this pain thats inside me,
will simply melt away
if I had you here

and promise me you'll stay

But if you say that you love me
and show me that you care
say when I need you,
you will always be there

but if you go and leave me
this I swear is true,
my love will always be with you


LAHAT SA BUHAY KO

Kulang ang bawat sandali
kung di kapiling ka,
bakit ba sa pag-iisa
hanap-hanap kita

Ayokong mangyari na
sa piling ko'y mawalay ka,
ikaw lang palagi at
wala na ngang iba

Ang puso ko,
ang isip ko,
ang buhay ko'y para sa 'yo,
at hindi kailan man ako'y sa 'yoy magbabago,
maglalaho itong mundo
ngunit di ang pag-ibig ko,
ganyan ka kamahal,
ang siyang lahat sa buhay ko

Hindi ako nangangamba
basta't kasama ka
at lagi ay nadarama
init ng pagsinta

Ayokong mangyari na
sa piling ko'y mawalay ka,
Ikaw lang palagi at
wala na ngang iba

Ang puso ko,
ang isip ko,
ang buhay ko'y para sa 'yo,
at hindi kailan man ako'y sa 'yoy magbabago,
maglalaho itong mundo
ngunit di ang pag-ibig ko,
ganyan ka kamahal,
ang siyang lahat sa buhay ko

Hindi ko kailangan
kahit na anong yaman sa mundo,
hiling ko lamang
habang buhay ay ikaw at ako
walang saysay
ang pag-ibig kung iiwanan mo,
nais ko'y ikaw lang dito sa aking mundo
ang sa t'wina ay kayakap ko

Ang puso ko,
ang isip ko,
ang buhay ko'y para sa 'yo,
at hindi kailan man ako'y sa 'yoy magbabago,
maglalaho itong mundo
ngunit di ang pag-ibig ko,
ganyan ka kamahal,
ang siyang lahat sa buhay ko

KELAN KAYA

Mahal kita, ngunit mahal mo siya
Hindi na sadyang mag-iiba
Ang pag-ibig mong
Dati ko pang inaasam
Ang tibok ng puso ko sana'y pakinggan


Kung minsan ba'y
Iyong nadarama
Pag-ibig kong mas higit sa kanya
Puwede bang kahit saglit
Ay malimutan siya
Kahit sandali lamang
Ay maging akin ka

Kelan kaya
Kita makakayakap
Kelan kaya
Ako makakahanap
Ng isang katulad mong
Bihira na sa mundo
Sana'y ingatan niya
Tulad pag-ingat ko sa puso mo


Pilit ko nang makalimutan ka
Hindi yata
Sadyang mag-iiba
Ang pag-ibig ko sayo
Lamang nakalaan
At hindi kita iiwan
Magpakaylanman

Kelan kaya
Kita makakayakap
Kelan kaya
Ako makakahanap
Ng isang katulad mong
Bihira na sa mundo
Sana'y ingatan niya
Tulad pag-ingat ko sa puso mo

Kaya kitang mahalin
Higit sa pagmamahal niya

Saturday, December 04, 2004

A simple message from IRIS CUTE

I was browsing the net nang maka recieve ako ng isang message. Nang buksan ko, sus si IRIS CUTE palan... so agad kong binuksan ang message niya... and talagang napangiti ako sa laman...

hirAp
idaan
s wlng
kiBo
hirAp
idaan
s wlng
sLita
hirAp
idaan
s
pg-iyAk
kng mhl
mO! xa,
bkt d mo!
sbhn
s knya??
mLay mO!
mhL k pla nya . .

yan ang message niya... I texted her back saying

Pano kng sabhn kng mahal kta! Ano ang sasabhn mo?

She never texted back!

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Are we just friends?

What happens when you want to ask a friend out on a date, but you're scared you'll hear, "No, thanks"? What can you do when potential mates think of you less like a lover and more like a brother?

What can you do when women--all women--seem to think of you as nothing more than a friend?

Don't be too hard on yourself. Being 'just friends' is an all too common problem these days when, more than ever, fewer people actually go out on dates, opting instead simply to 'hang out,' pick up a coffee, or take in a movie, all the while acting as if there's no date happening. The line between dating and just hanging around is blurry--and that's where your dilemma starts.

Have you ever noticed that friends often don't arouse strong romantic feelings in some of us? They may seem perfect in all sorts of ways: funny, great to be around, smart, trustworthy, similar, and familiar. But no matter how hard we try, they just don't arouse strong romantic feeling in us?

This occurs because people linger too long in the getting-to-know- you phase, without getting clear right away about whether their time together are 'real dates' or 'just hanging out.' Haven't you ever felt the initial rush of interest for a new friend, but then suppressed those feelings because you thought that she didn't act interested? But it could be that she felt passion for you, way back when you first started hanging out. You just couldn't see it. Time passed, and now you're like a brother to her. She's known you so long--as nothing more than a friend--and you're no longer romantically exciting. Get the picture?

So what can you do to stop becoming a brother and start being a lover? Don't dawdle too long at the friendship stage. If your friend has any romantic feelings for you at all, you'll have to take advantage of the window of opportunity. Ask early, or be prepared to miss the chance.

Picking the right time is essential: somewhere after the "getting to know you" stage but before she starts telling you about all the men she's really interested in. When she starts confiding, "I had an awful date last night," be ready to step in right away, and tell her how you feel about her.

Making the switch from friends to lovers isn't easy. You might not be up to the challenge since it is risky. What if you lose the relationship entirely? That might happen. But if yours is a good friendship, it will survive. And don't the potential gains outweigh the risks? Just do it. Otherwise, you'll always be stuck as a brother, wishing the man she dates were you.

Stages of Grief

Grief is a somewhat commplicated and misunderstood emotion. Yet, grief is something that, unfortunately, we must all experience at some time or other. We will all inevitably experience loss. Whether it is a loss through death, divorce or some other loss, the stages of grieving are the same.There are five stages of grief. If we get stuck in one stage or the other, the process of grieving is not complete, and cannot be complete. Thus there will be no healing. A person MUST go through the five stages to be well again, to heal. Not everyone goes through the stages at the same time. It is different for each person. You cannot force a person through the stages, they have to go at their own pace, and you may go one step forward then take two steps backward, but this is all part of the process, and individual to each person. But, as stressed, ALL five stages must be completed for healing to occur.

1. Denial-"this can't be happening to me", looking for the former spouse in familia places, or if it is death, setting the table for the person or acting as if they are still in living there. No crying. Not accepting or even acknowledging the loss.

2. Anger-"why me?", feelings of wanting to fight back or get even with spouse of divorce, for death, anger at the deceased, blaming them for leaving.

3. Bargaining-bargaining often takes place before the loss. Attempting to make deals with the spouse who is leaving, or attempting to make deals with God to stop or change the loss. Begging, wishing, praying for them to come back.

4. Depression-overwhelming feelings of hopelessness, frustration, bitterness, self pity, mourning loss of person as well as the hopes, dreams and plans for the future. Feeling lack of control, feeling numb. Perhaps feeling suicidal.

5. Acceptance-there is a difference between resignation and acceptance. You have to accept the loss, not just try to bear it quietly. Realization that it takes two to make or break a marriage. Realization that the person is gone (in death) that it is not their fault, they didn't leave you on purpose. (even in cases of suicide, often the deceased person, was not in their right frame of mind) Finding the good that can come out of the pain of loss, finding comfort and healing. Our goals turn toward personal growth. Stay with fond memories of person. Get help. You will survive. You will heal, even if you cannot believe that now, just know that it is true. To feel pain after loss is normal. It proves that we are alive, human. But we can't stop living. We have to become stronger, while not shutting off our feelings for the hope of one day being healed and finding love and/or happiness again. Helping others through something we have experienced is a wonderful way to fascilitate our healing and bring good out of something tragic.

Si Cute....

Grabe... hindi ko laam ang gagawin ko kung nasa tabi ko si cute... siyempre... papansin din ako... pero talagang mahirap akong mapansin eh... palaging busy sa ginagawa niya... sana maging friend ko siya in the near future... how I wish...

A Prayer

Please lang po... Lord... wag naman... ayoko nang may bagyo!!!! Kakaalis pa lang po ni UNDING please lang naman po... paalisin mo na po si YOYONG!!!! Kawawa naman ang mga family namin and yung mga taga Cabusao na nasiraan na ni UNDING tapos ngayon naman, si YOYONG na naman... ayoko na po...

Lord, this I ask thru Your Holy name...

Amen

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